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[16 Oct 2005|11:01pm] |
One Art- Elizabeth Bishop
The are of losing in't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent to be loast that their loss is no diaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent. The art of losing isn't
hard to master.
Then practice losing farther, losing faster; places, and names and where it was you meant to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or next to last, of three loved houses went. The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones, And , vaser, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent, I miss them, but
It wasn't a disaster.
--Even losing you(the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident the art of losing's not too hard to master thought it may look like(write it) like disaster.
i carry your heart with me
by e. e. cummings
i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
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[23 May 2005|12:17pm] |
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K, so I'm procrastinating doing physical geology homework. I'm taking physical geol, pre-calculus, and a history class online this summer so I can overload in the fall and graduate in the spring. (This sounded like a better idea before I had to do the work.)
Did well again this semester
Judaic Studies: A-
Family Systems: A
HDEV 300: B+
Hist of sexuality: B+
Semester GPA: 3.575
Overall GPA: 3.509
And now my summer
Boringness until June 4th
4-10: Ben in NY
7: FP Meeting
10-16: In MD with Ben
18: Great Adventure with cool people
30: Camp Starts
July
26: I'm old
August
23: camp over
24: Bing :-/
K, I'm bored of this... bye.
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[29 Mar 2005|09:04pm] |
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"Crash And Burn"
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
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[25 Mar 2005|07:08pm] |
Break...
So other than last weekend which was awesome break has kind of sucked. I haven't seen any friends or done much of anything. I saw Miss Congeniality 2 with my mom and Jenna today. Otherwise I've done my 300 hw and done 3/5 Hdev 315 journal articles. Hopefully I'll be able to do the other two tomorrow and be done. Schedule of classes comes out tomorrow.. gee whizz!
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[21 Mar 2005|09:17pm] |
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I guess at some point you have to really leave the past behind... Here's to the memories because that's really all they are.
Here's to the new and the future.. which right now is pretty bright.
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[19 Mar 2005|12:07am] |
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one amazing year :)
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[24 Feb 2005|05:59pm] |
bold anything that applies to you.
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own a home.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games. (mariokart 64)
008. I've done something illegal.
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I like my handwriting.
013. I have acne-free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been to another country.
019. I carry my knife/razor/whip/whatever weapon you want here everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized. it IS the oldest proffesion..lol
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I've been sexually intimate with less than ten people.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgeoisie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my diary.
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before. (YOU LOOK OPEN CAN I CLOSE YOUR GAP?)
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have been rejected by someone.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "South Park" movie.
086. I have avoided work to play on OD.
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love my best friend(s).
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome!
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. Had a crush on somebody you have never met.
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest movies/books ever.
110. I watch "The O.C."
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is one of the best foods in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd. 117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and DAMN proud of it.
119. I try not to change who I am for someone.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have had major surgery.
124. I have adopted a pet from the ASPCA.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Some people call me by a nickname.
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. I like pumpkin pie.
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
134. I'm still in my PJs.
135. I'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
136. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong boys, or have them fall for me, so I can't help but reciprocate.
137. I'll try anything three times.
138. Done drugs other than alcohol or cannabis.
139. I'm having trouble sleeping.
140. I am a cuddler.
141. I love John Waters films.
142. I have made a pornographic videotape.
143. Sloth is my favorite deadly sin.
144. One of my boobs is bigger than the other.
145. I know all the words to the "Firefly" theme song.
146. I love Dr. Pepper
147. I'm a programmer.
148. I can't explain why I'm unhappy at times.
149. I own and have read all of the Harry Potter books.
150. I like to smell my own hair.
151. I carry a book with me almost everywhere I go.
152. I have an eating disorder.
153. I have flown to a different country to see a band.
154. Been hospitalized for "mental issues".
155. I have survived totaling a car I was driving.
156. I am addicted to a Manga/anime.
157. Somehow I always seem to get myself into trouble.
158. I have dated someone for longer than 5 years.
159. I have been hit by flying Eric Szmanda spittle.
160. I have lived in three different countries.
161. I have tattoos.
162. I have lost someone I cared about deeply.
163. I've filled out an obscenely long quiz.
164. I am not human until I have had some form of caffiene.
165. I can't use can openers
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[17 Jan 2005|12:13pm] |
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I will not write in this anymore. Bye all.
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[16 Jan 2005|09:05pm] |
everyone is full of shit. full of shit.
end of story.
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[14 Jan 2005|06:11pm] |
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So I figure I'll update even though I don't know why...
I've been quasi-productive during break. I'm taking a class online which will be over next week. I've read a few really good books-Beach Girls, Jepthe's Daughter, Color of Water, The DaVinci Code, London Bridges, 3rd Degree, and The Covenant. I'm going to try to finish Confessions of a Wicked Stepsister before I leave and read Deception Point before classes start.
I'm leaving on Thursday-I'm not sure how I'm getting back yet but regardless I have to be back on Friday for work. I'm working almost 16 hours the first week of school plus classes that should be oooooodlles of fun. (not so much) I can't sleep lately I have no so much on my midn when I start to go to sleep that I think for hours on end-alot about next year, being at school without Ben, where I am living, if I will be happy, lack of friendships at school, worrying about graduating, when I will gradute, if I want to graduate early, what I am going to do after I graduate. I guess that's it because even if there's more I don't want people to read about it.
Hope everyone had a nice winter break!
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[27 Dec 2004|09:33pm] |
So... I guess I owe everyone an update..
Semester was okay... socially.. blegh. I love the roomie though. And since I was 'always' doing work I did pretty good. I'd know for sure if my last grade ever got posted. I'll have over a 3.5 though. :) Yay Deans List. Next semester is going to be ALOT of work but what's new?
After finals I went to Maryland w/ Ben. I had a very good time. :)
And Ben is coming on Thursday... yay!
I have no clue where I'm living next year... note sore subject but whatever.
So that was my update if you want to know whats going on you already do.
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[26 Dec 2004|05:38pm] |
i think about it over and over again
speaking of over and over again... the cycle with the family starts again.
welcome to my life.
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[06 Dec 2004|07:42pm] |
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what goes does praying do? really now.. heh. i give up with that.
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[03 Dec 2004|11:39pm] |
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everyone should write papers while tipsy.. i highly recommend it.. okay im going to finish my paper now b/c i cant go to sleep till i do and well the vodka made me tipsy.
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[30 Nov 2004|10:42pm] |
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[27 Nov 2004|09:09pm] |
So I'm leaving for Bing in about 12 hours. :-/ Two more weeks, two weeks of HELL, absolute HELL. I miss Ben and he's the only reason I am looking forward to going back. I get so attached to being home so quickly. I missed my mommy and Jenna. This weekend was really nice and I don't want it to end. I'm so tense and stressed and this was a really nice break but reality is going to hit hard come tomorrow night when I have A TON of work to do! Erg... I probably shouldn't be going to Sue's wedding but it's important to me so err.
Okay, time to stare at my paper for a few minutes, say bye to grandma and pack..
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[26 Nov 2004|11:34am] |
So yeah so much work so little time..
COLI paper-apparently due Thursday
HDEV paper (worth 30%) of my grade due 12/6
COLI presentation 12/7
PSYCH paper due sometime
Packing sometime before then to bring 1/2 my stuff for my parents at the wedding
HDEV final due-12/12
Sue's wedding-12/12
Math final-8:30 AM (12/13)
Psych final-7 PM (12/13)
then laundry and packing
now to go work on the paper
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[25 Nov 2004|10:16pm] |
six and a half hours later... im spent.
happy thanksgiving kids!
laila tov.
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[24 Nov 2004|09:07pm] |
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Thanksgiving crazyness..
Turkey, chicken, 3 quiches, zucchini bread, stuffing, sweet potatoes, baked ziti, another pasta, greenbeen casserole, corn pudding, choc. chip cake, bluberry tart, cookies
oh happy day!
i forgot the circus is coming over!
oh looney bin!
i miss my love
but i figured out how to graduate a semester early! :-) whoohoo!!!!!!! SCOREEEEE!!!
and now im going to finish one section of my paper
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[21 Nov 2004|10:23pm] |
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i think im going to push everyone away so im alone and then ill just really fall apart. thats certianly what is seems like im doing. i have problems.
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